30 October 2010~: JIGSS Graduation Day~

Currently listening to:
> Genesis of Aquarion - Akino ("Sousei no Aquarion" OST)
> Fairy Tail Main Theme [playing over and over again~~~XD]
> Fairy Tail Main Theme slow version

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30 October 2010.

This date shall be declared as one of the best day ever of my whole life.

Graduation Day is the day.

And Graduation Day was awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Since I didn't bring my camera along this time, so the report on this day shall be in the form of words~

well, until Michiru had uploaded the pics, that is~

coz most of the pics that we've took are all in her camera (not most of it, it was practically ALL of it~ XD)

Woke up at 3am...5am....6am...then finally at 7.13am... woke up so many times before I officially woke up (???) coz I was too nervous about today's performance!! >A<

Got ready and I left for Dynasty Hotel.

Reached there at about 8.50am or so, but I was the second among the four DeVastellas to arrive there. Hanatsu was the first coz we, apparently, reminded her yesterday to not be late today~ XD

But, gosh.....it was raining pretty heavily this morning upon arriving at the hotel. As we waited for Michiru and Kaede to arrive, I was trying my best to stay away from the main entrance as the friggin cold wind keeps blowing in and at my direction!!! D8

Luckily I didn't catch a cold, or my performance today with Hanatsu will be 100% ruined!!!!!!!!!

While waiting for them to arrive, Hanatsu dragged me (or was it that I dragged her...? 83) to the toilet to help me do my make up. Well, as I said, being a person who doesn't know how to apply her own make up, Hanatsu had to do it all for me. (sigh....I feel useless...... Q.Q)

We met up with Michiru soon after we finished with the make up and headed straight up to the 5th Level Ballroom.

Hoho, upon arrival, I was seen as this ghost~ XD

Coz my make up was pretty thick, making me look like a....ghost~ >.>|||

as what fashion calls as the floating head.

So, after some adjustments here and there, my make up finally looks better. So much better~ XD

No more floating head~ :3

We then move on to the most....not to say boring, but not so important part of the day, the teachers' speech.

It is important for some, but at tha moment, it wasn't so important as I had a performance to worry about. So, I popped my earphones and listened to the instrumental version of "Shunkan Sentimental" as i memorized the lyrics that Hanatsu wrote for our performance. I occasionally forgot the lyrics coz I was damn nervous like, 3 hours before our turn to hit the stage!!!! >.<

I couldn't even talk properly coz I was, yes, nervous.

After the teachers' speech and the launch (???) of the Graduation Day, it was time for us to go on stage to recieve our graduation certificates. Well, mine went well, coz all I had to do was just walk on stage, recieve the cert, smile for the camera and walk down like nothing happened.

After that, it was time to eat!!!!!!!!!

But I friggin had no mood to eat because I was too nervous for the performance.

I took some cakes and tidbits to nom on first, but it barely went down my throat.

Then it all came down to that moment.

One of the other performer, Eelia, went on stage first. She performed "The Climb" by Miley Cyrus. It went all well.

After her turn was our turn.

I could still remember how I felt the moment Eelia finished singing her song. My hand became freezing cold (without the help of the aircond in the room) and my heart was jumping around. Literally.

I went on stage and grabbed the microphone.

I was very, very nervous.

But what gave me the courage to stand there and perform for the sake of entertaining everyone was the crowds' cheers the moment I stepped on stage.

At that moment, I was like, "What??? And I was expecting not even a single clap from anyone today!!!"

But well, I got 'em anyways. It gave me the determination to finish the performance.

First up was "Inori ~You Raise Me Up" (Lena Park, "Romeo X Juliet" OP). I started out with the Japanese version of the song first. At first I thought I was gonna mess up the tone again like what happened the day before during rehearsals, but it all went well~ and we had the crowd cheering throughout our singing.

Then it was "The Crescent Night", lyrics written by Hanatsu (and edited by me~ XD) with "Shunkan Sentimental" (Scandal, "Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood" ED) as the song that goes along with the lyrics.

Haha, it was awesome as well!!!!!!!!!!

Seeing the success of the performance of these two songs today gives me the confidence and determination that the "Just Be Friends" performance for Comic Fiesta this year will be a hot shot~ XD

After we finished performing, we FINALLY could have peace of mind and also the appetite to eat.

And also take lots and lots of pictures!!!!!!!!

That's the most important thing to do for an occasion like this~ :)

We had like, a good 2 and a half hours of free time (and more, I think) as the certificate presentation ceremony finished earlier than scheduled.

And it was during this awesome free time that all of us were spending the memory card spaces and also the camera battery for memory keepsake.

We left the building at around 1.45pm.

And the moment I reached home, I dropped dead. Slept for a good 3 hours before waking up to bring my dog out for a walk and to eat dinner~ XD

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For what's worth, I think today should really be the day that all us JIGSS form 5 girls class of 2010 should remember for the rest of our lives.

Today marks the official date that we are partially on our way away from high school and into adulthood, where life will be different from how it was.

And also the amout of fun that we had today just carved more sweet memories onto our hearts.

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Once Michiru upload all the pics into Facebook, I will save them and post them up here.

And also, our performance were recorded on video by Michiru's camera also. I'll get the video from her soon and upload them on YouTube so it is easier for you to see so you won't have to go through the trouble to get it from me on Facebook.

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That's pretty much. More or less about what had happened today besides me feeling drained now. Ahax~

Tomorrow gotta go to church early, so I gotta hit the sack now~~ :3

This is your KHR/Kuroshitsuji/yaoi/cosplay/Fairy Tail addict blogger, Yukino....

SIGNING OUT!!!!!!!!!!!

SEE YA~~*

28 October 2010~ : 2 Days to Graduation Day!!!!!

Currently listening to:
> Shunkan Sentimental ~instrumental/karaoke~ - Scandal ("Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood" ED)
> Tienohra - Peha

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Wow~~

time flies so fast~

never really realized that it's already barely one month to go to SPM!!!!! @A@

The exact number of days would have to be 24 days....I think....

I just can't imagine the number of days getting lesser and lesser as every second goes by.....

*sighs.....*

how can I make time go back to the point where it was countdown 100 days to go before SPM?

oh wait.... I can't~~ TTATT

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I finally realize the hardships of becoming a fanfic writer.....@.@
It's pretty hard to think up of all the names of the chapters for my on going fanfic, "Katekyo Hitman Reborn side DVST: Catena Inheritance Battle Arc".
After doing some (and a very long) considerations, I finally came up with these chapter titles.
Give me your opinions, k?

Chapter 1: Innocent Sorrow (Abingdon Boys School)
Chapter 2: Realize (Nami Tamaki)
Chapter 3: Cyclone (12012)
Chapter 4: Pride (High & Mighty Color)
Chapter 5: Magnet (Miku Hatsune & Luka Megurine)
Chapter 6: Doubt & Trust (Access)
Chapter 7: When I Look at You (Miley Cyrus)
Chapter 8: Love the Way You Lie (Eminem feat. Rihanna)
Chapter 9: Go Away (2NE1)
Chapter 10: Best Friends (Kana Nishino)
Chapter 11: Kiss Me Goodbye (Angela Aki)
Chapter 12: Everytime (Britney Spears)
Chapter 13: I Never Told You (Colbie Caillat)
Chapter 14: My All (Ayumi Hamasaki)
Chapter 15: Just Call My Name (Tsukiko Amano)
Chapter 16: Down to Earth (Justin Bieber)
Chapter 17: Run (Leona Lewis)

hoho, yes~
my creativity level is soooo low, that I've used song titles as the chapter titles of my fanfic!!!! XD

But~
there's a significance behind the reason why I chose to do so~~~ :3
The reason why I used song titles for each of the chapter titles is because the title of the songs and also the lyrics matches the situations that happens in each chapter, making it having a significance for that particular chapter and thus playing a part in each chapter.

But...you know what, the chapter titles are subject to change because ideas on other songs to be used as chapter titles keep popping up in my head!!! XD
Well, now I have the chapter titles as a guide, I really oughta start preparing some story drafts so I won't forget the significance of each title for the song and also the plot of each chapter. I'm working on it now, but due to the intense preparation for Graduation Day and also SPM, I don't seem to have sufficient time.

GYAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (<-- forgive my sudden scream~~)

And oh, for those who are loyal readers of my fanfic blog, I hereby apologize for not updating my fanfic blog for so long.
It's just so hard to think of what to type & to write (same thing~ XD) when I have tons of other things to think about.
I might have the time around the corner soon, but I still doubt I can do any updates for my fanfic blog~ T^T

So...I guess the wait will have to last until I've finished my SPM exams..... T^T

but don't worry, it won't take long for each of the chapters to be completed since I won't have anything much important to worry about by then~ XD

so I hope you can wait for everything to be completed, k? ^^
thanx for your patience!!!!!! <3

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After a very....very....VERYYYYYY long wait~~

my Fujoshi HS coat has finally arrived!!!!

YAYYYY!!!!!

It arrived just yesterday, just in time before my Graduation Day this Saturday.

I was planning to wear it for my Graduation Day as a replacement for my, apparently, missing cardigan (long-sleeved one) and my jacket.

Hmm....but I just don't know if my Fujoshi HS leader, Akihiko, would allow me to...

since she told me to keep the coat away from public eyes before our debut in Comic Fiesta this year~

I just sent her a Facebook PM an hour ago to ask her permission~

I don't know what her answer will be, but I really hope she'll allow me to wear it~

Besides, it's only to cover up the top part of my dress, not to show it off~~ >.>|||

and oh, since Akihiko had asked me to keep it as a secret from public, so I can't take a picture to show you the pretty coat~

Gomen ne!!! >.<

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Yup, as mentioned above, it's gonna be the most (hopefully) memorable day of my entire high school life (or more accurately, my secondary school life~).

This Saturday is my school's Graduation Day!!! XD

Pretty excited about it, coz I'm going to do a singing performance of two songs, which is "Inori" by Lena Park from Romeo X Juliet (yes, I'm friggin gonna sing both the english version and the japanese version of the song in one go) and also "The Cresent Night", a self-written song by Hanatsu which is of the tone of "Shunkan Sentimental" by Scandal from Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood.

Hehe, I hope the performance will go well...

and hopefully people will enjoy it~~@@

Hoho, and~~

the best part of my Graduation Day would definitely have to be my awesomely pretty dress!!!! XD

not to say it's like prom dress kind of dress, just a simple floral-themed dress.

The only reason why I had to wear an extra layer is because that the dress breaks one of the dress code, whereby it is COMPULSORY for us to wear something with SLEEVES; and my dress, well....it's spaghetti strap~ XD

That's why I have to wear something like cardigan, jacket or coat (my FUJOSHI coat~ XD) to cover up the supposingly (???) revealing parts of my dress. (hey!!!! I don't think my dress is THAT revealing, okay??? It's not like it's neck-plunging or bareback!!!!!!!!!)

I should be arriving there by 8.45 am coz the registration opens at 9am. And also, time is needed for Hanatsu to help me put on my make-up (sorry to say this, but yes, I SUCK AT PUTTING ON MY OWN MAKE-UP) and also do some early morning camwhorings~ XD

Venue?

5th Level Ballroom of the Dynasty Hotel at Sentul~ XD

it's the most unlikely place, but at least we are given the chance to wear our own clothes, unlike the past form 5 seniors who didn't had the chance to do so~ >:3

It's the final countdown to Graduation Day!!!!!!!!

As my title says....

2 DAYS TO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WARGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hanatsu and I will be doing some serious series of practices tomorrow to make sure that everything is in tip top condition for this Saturday.

And above all.....

I REALLY, REALLY WISH THAT EVERYONE CAN SUPPORT US AND HOPEFULLY DON'T BOO US!!!!! >.<

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Well, that's about it!!!!
Time to sleep now, I have to study tomorrow~~

off to recharge my dead brain~ >.>||||

This is your cosplay/KHR/Kuroshitsuji/yaoi fanatic blogger, Yukino...

SIGNING OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SEE YA!!!!!!!!!!!

22 October 2010: What hurts the most........

Currently listening to:
> Tienohra - Peha
> Run - Leona Lewis
> Shunkan Sentimental - Scandal ("Full Metal Alchemist: Brotherhood" OP)

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The masquerade has ended.
The angelic masquerade masks break,
shattering into shards that sparkled under the chandeliers' light.

Their true nature are no longer hidden.

We see jealousy.

We see hatred.

We see rivalry.

We see all the worst in everyone.

Brace yourselves.

We are about to witness the worst of the nature of people.

In a communnity full of hypocrites............

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[Sometimes, the best way to solve a problem is by confessing.]
[Telling lies may lead you out of the problem, but it't not going to solve the problem for good.]

A prank is just a prank,
but it becomes one's worst nightmare if the prank involves what they fear most.

 More accurately, involving what they are phobia of.

What we saw and experienced today was one of the worse pranks that was ever played in the history of our class.

The plain old fake cockroach joke on Hanatsu took a toll on our whole class and turned everything upside down.
 It practically broke our unity which we promised to keep at the beginning of this year.

What fun they had.

Well.... it had been a pretty tiring and mad day....
the story is meant to be a secret to only those who are directly involved (I am, as I am an eyewitness on the incident). So, I'm very sorry that I cannot tell you.

As for those who already know, you know.

And as for those who are involved....
well, I better not say anything since I'm not the victim.

but hey, I'm the victim's best friend.

And here I stand, telling all those who are involved that:
Mentally bullying one person is as good as physically bullyinh them, the only difference is that the effect is permanent.

And you know it.

I know...you already know that she's afraid of cockroaches, so WTF do you need to prank her?

Is it that fun?

And why are the both of them the only victims?

Is it awesome to prank someone with what they fear most?
Heh~
you all sure had a good laugh.

What you didn't know is that all of you,
and I mean ALL OF YOU who have cliqued with the plan....

you have no idea how hurt she was.

Of course, you'll  never know how it hurts. Because you weren't the ones who experienced it.

Emotional and mental scars hurts more than physical scars.
And it hurts even more if the scars were caused by something you fear most.

So much for being a hero.
Would you really stand up and take the blame all by yourself?
And ACTUALLY get away with it???

Are you really going to stand up to the teacher and tell her that you, the one who planned it all, had nothing to do with it and that the victim was just being all sensitive?

I DOUBT.

WAKE UP CALL!!!!!

She's not just afraid of them, she's PHOBIA with them!!!!!!!!

And when you scare people with what they are phobia of, you're practically giving them an indirect death sentence.

But, I know...
all you need to do is just show teacher your round and sparkly puppy eyes and you escape from being punished.

Well,
wrong again.

As I said.....
Phobia is not something you can mess around with.
Once it is triggered, it becomes worse and it hurts an individual directly.

You can't feel it, coz you were the one who didn't felt it.

Maybe you didn't know back then.

But now you do.

To you, does it make any differences?

No?

Then....

Imagine this.


Someone plays a prank on you by making you face your deepest and most fearful phobia forcefully.

And all they said was: "It was just a joke, you shouldn't take  it too seriously."

How would you feel?

Wouldn't it be the same?

I stand here, actually, not to tell you to fuck off or anything.

I'm just trying to tell you that, as a communnity, we should be helping each other and not hurting each other.

Where was the promise you made along with ALL of us that we will help each other out if we face any problems?

It's about time this promise comes along.

But I'm not forcing anyone here.

It's up to your own liking if you prefer to hate us than to be friends with us.
We're fine with that.

But I am giving you a warning:
NEVER EVER PLAY THAT SORT OF PRANK ON HER OR ON ANYONE ELSE.

Yes, you apologized to the victim.

But, you never knew how she reacted.

She took it.

Guess if she accepted it.

And finally....

if you still have the intention to continue to prank her, then this is all I can say~

Thank you soooo much for crossing the border.
Now you will face the consequences of hurting someone emotionally and mentally.

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IT'S SOOOOOOOO LATE ALREADY!!!!!!

Well, gotta hit the sack now~

Buonanotte, peeps~ :)

16 October 2010~: updates from the past two weeks~

Currently listening to:
> Be More - Dino Cavallone starring KENN ("Katekyo Hitman Reborn!" character song)
> I Never Told You - Colbie Caillat
> Your Call - Secondhand Serenade
> Can I Have This Dance? - Zac Efron and Vanessa Hudgens ("High School Musical 3: Senior Year" OST)
> Loop - Heidi. ("Kaichou wa Maid-sama!" OP)
> Tienohra - Peha

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Well, it's been pretty long, no? 8D

And damn, I sure do miss my blog~

Hmm.... I was thinking of switching to Tumblr....

whadaya think? :O

Hehe, say your thoughts!!!! :3

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Since I'm able to go online now, so you know what that means....

yup...

MY SPM TRIALS EXAM ARE OFFICIALLY OVER!!!!
WOOTS!!!!!!!!!

Well, it didn't went too smooth as I usually don't expect, but it was okay.

Plus, I already got back some of my test papers and I've done pretty well. So I think it's not that bad.

Maybe.

Coz....only some of the some papers that I've gotten back was the okay one. The rest was.... SO NOT OKAY.

Especially addmaths.

That's the only subject now that I still can't pass no matter how hard I try.

Sigh...... why can't I pass it??

I've tried my level best this time. And how am I suppose to continue to make myself more confident that I'm able to pass it when I'm still not passing it after all this time??

And at this rate, if I still keep failing, what will become of my future??? My friggin career lies solely on it!!! D8

I have got to do something about it. 

FAST!!!

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The usual Friday morning during Nilam time became filled with sorrow when a heart aching news was announced. Many students who were not being thought by her would definitely have not felt the loss, the pain, the sorrow, but for me, it definitely was a big blow.

SMKPJI mourns the loss of one of our beloved teacher, Pn Suriati Ghazali, who has left us last Thursday after she succumbed to her illness. She is forever etched onto our hearts as the teacher who remained strong for the sake of the students. We all thank you for your dedication and hard work that you have given all these years. May God bless you for eternity.

As it is pretty late now, I don't have much time to blog about Pn Suriati. So, maybe tomorrow?

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Well, I think I should be heading off to bed now.

I'll be having a taekwondo tournament in Tunku Abdul Rahman College tomorrow, which we thought was on then was cancelled then was on again. (CONFUSION~~ @.@)

So yea... as usual, I don't have any confidence on winning any medals as usual~ I don't know if the number of participants in the poomsae category have increased this year, but I still think I can't make it.

 Plus, I think I forgot (I THINK) taegeuk 5. Damn, I'm useless...

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This is your cosplay/yaoi/KHR/Kuroshitsuji fanatic blogger, Yukino~

SIGNING OUT!!!!

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~Ciao*Ciao~