18 Sept 2011: The day after I quitted my job

Mood: On the top of the cloud~ XD but at the same time I'm going through a wave of problems, so I'm tied between being overly happy and overly depressed. So, let's just call it neutral~ .w.


Currently listening to:
> Super Bass - Ashley Gosengfiao cover (original by Nicki Minaj)
> Freely Tomorrow - Miku Hatsune
> Story of Us - Taylor Swift
> Tear Us Apart - Nadhira ft. Ron E Jones
> Last Friday Night - Katy Perry

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Hey y'all netizens!!!

Yeap, people, as you've read the headline of today's post, I quitted my job at BarBQ Plaze yesterday.

Wanna know why?

Coz I can't handle the job stress there orz.

Not that I can't handle job stress, but the stress that I have to handle there is not the level of stress that I can handle. I know how many people have seen me handle loads of stress back when I was in high school, but the stress in the working world is different, and especially in there, it's something I can't handle~ @@
So, after some thoughtful considerations, I decided to stop my work there. :)

Now, I'm a happy free girl.

Free from that crazy job~ XD
Though I did have loads of fun time in there, but trust me, if I just have to stay there for another two weeks til the end of this month, I know I will go nuts. Go crazy. Crazier than I already am. @A@

But, not to worry, my good folks, I already have a backup job to back me up when I quit my job as a full time waitress at BarBQ Plaza. :D

I now work as a part time barista at Starbucks Coffee!!!! <3<3

Yea, it's in Jusco Kepong as well, but I know it's gonna be better than being a waitress at BarBQ Plaza. :3

Gonna start tomorrow and I hope this job will last til the end of the year. ^^

Oh yea, do you have any idea how much I miss my cosplay life? @@
not that I'm obsessed with it, I just kinda miss it. VERY VERY MUCH. TT_____TT

Planning to do a shoot by October with my dearest Hanatsu, so I'm hoping that time will be in our covinience so that I can continue to improve myself in cosplay. :D

And if I never mentioned, I'm on a cold war against my beloved sayang. :(

Must've been something that slipped out of my mouth again, perhaps, and also both of our tempers.

He told me loads of things that I never knew on Friday, and I'm hurt by his words, but at the same time I realized that I don't know him as much as I should know if we were to continue our relationship. :O
So right now, I'm waiting for his answer as patiently as I could, in 3 weeks time. I don't know if he would really personally call me on 8th October to tell me his answer, but somehow there's a downside in his answer. And if it's anything to do with having to break up with me, I don't know how I'm gonna handle it since I have never handled any break up before. TT_____TT

So, I'm praying my hardest that his heart would soften and he would forgive me, and that his decision would not involve anything that would drive me to (possibly) suicide or something like that. ;w;

orz

but no worries, I know I'm able to handle it.

Hopefully.

Oh wells, at least now I still have other things to distract me from it (lucky to have 'em) but seriously, I'm not ready to break up with him yet, moreover that he's my first, so I really want him to be my last.

And if there's anything I could do to fix this, I would do it.

Yes, my friends have advised me that I have to be patient and strong and not to think a lot about it and also to give each other time, but right now, only God knows how much I cry on the inside although all this while I'm always wearing a big smile on my face and laughing to every jokes. :/

So right now, I'm trying my very best to retain back my perseverance, strength, courage and patience, which I assume to have lost after I am together with him.

I know I have to get it back in me if I want to survive in my relationship with him. Without it, I believe I'm not me. I'm only someone who hides behind a mask.

Okay, leave that aside for now. >.<

I'm now just happy that I've quitted my job from there and I'm starting a new job tomorrow, a new job that I know I'll be looking forward to coz I went through the mind-boggling interview on my own, without my mom accompanying me and applied what I've learned back in National Service into the questions asked in the interview to help me to get this job. :) very proud of myself~ ^^

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A little quote to end my post of the day, relating it to what I've been through this week. :)

I’m a girl. I overreact. I underestimate. I overestimate. I over think everything. I dream big. And when I say I love you...

I’m not lying.

See ya!!! :3 <3

(P.S: I have no idea when I will resume on my fanfiction project. TTATT been delaying it for too long til I have no idea how to continue it.)