02 Jan 2013: New Year, New Wishes

Current mood: neutral at the moment. Going to do a bit of spring cleaning to my room today >3<

Current playlist:
>Merrily High Go Round - DOLL$BOXX 
>Loud Twin Stars - DOLL$BOXX
>BLUE - BigBang
> Bad Apple! - nomico

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Hello, my lovely readers~ <3 p="p">

I'm really really sorry if I haven't updated my blog in such a long time ><

I know it's been two months, but it was during these two months that I was really really busy with college and final exams...and Comic Fiesta....and work. 

Yea.

I was THAT busy.

 I know that there are some people who were busier than me, but well...I'm doing all of these at one go. I get less than 3 hours of sleep every single day, UP until today. Even during my semester break (which was in December til...today actually |D) I couldn't get enough sleep because I was working and also working on my C2AGE stuff as well.

Ahh well. >_____>

BUT let's not talk about that for now.

2012 had been a real emotional roller coaster ride. Tons of happy times, sad times, frustrating times....in a nutshell, a whole lot of events occurred. 

Historical ones.

Emotional ones.

Overwhelming ones. 

Happy ones.

:)

Here's a list of my best memories of 2012. ^^ (not going to talk about the worst memories, coz, well...they are not worth remembering anyways :3)

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[My best memories of 2012]

- BigBang's concert in Malaysia

my first ever concert, and it is the biggest concert I've been to~ >3<

-Comic Fiesta 2012

seriously, it was EPIC. If I said the same thing two years ago, this time it was just...I don't know, I became speechless the very moment I stepped into the hall. There were so many people...loads of fun activities and all. I met a lot of old friends, rejoicing when I see them, and also meeting up with tons of new friends. :)

camwhoring with Sabby :3

I was cosplaying as Yuuki Cross and she was cosplaying as Yuki Onna~

LE DAMN LONG QUEUE LINEEEEE

WITH LOADS OF VISITORSSSSS

camwhoar with Julia :3

I cosplayed as Miku Camellia (day 2)

The photo of Sabby and I taken at the KDU booth :3

Camwhoar with my pwetty Fujoshi HS uke, Hinata~ <3 p="p">

Me and my pwetty dear imouto, Mae Ryn, with her cosplaying as Madotsuki :)

Photo credits: Mae Ryn :3

-One year anniversary of working in Starbucks!! 

Seriously though. I never expected myself to continue working with them until now. :D There was at one point where I nearly wanted to give up working because it was just so tiring, but I managed to pull myself together. Now here I am, working for over one year now, with September 19, 2012 marking my one year anniversary of being a Starbucks partner ;w; <3 p="p">

(picture credits: Shakilla, one of my co-worker :D)

-Alodia & Ashley Gosiengfiao replied to my invitation e-mail!!!! XD 

Yeap, it's true. :D they cleared out their schedule for the sake of attending one of the events coming up this year. More to come soon on this topic. It's still a secret project ~XDD

-First honored visitor to be given a special tour in the new Gempak office & meeting with their comic artists, Kaoru & Keith <3 b="b">

Yeap, you got that right. :D They renovated their office and upgraded them with tons of new stuff >3< during our visit to their office to meet Kaoru & Keith (for the same purpose as Alodia and Ashley ;D) we were given a special tour to their new gallery room. According to them, we are the first people to enter the gallery room. Sabby and I felt so honored~ >3<

-Anime Festival Asia: Malaysia 2012 :D <3 b="b" nbsp="nbsp">

 This was one heck of an event as well. And the best part? I GOT REALLY CLOSE TO KANAME WHILE WAITING IN LINE TO ENTER THE BUTLER CAFE DAMMIT~!!!! 8D

And tons more memories!!! :D

Seriously, it's just impossible for me to list everything down because there is just plenty of them :)

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I have yet to prepare a full set of 2013 Resolutions at the moment coz I'm still not sure what to expect for this year ><
But for the main wishes, it'll definitely have to be happiness, health and the will to complete everything perfectly. :)

Cosplays? DEFINITELY MORE BETTER. I want to improve my skills in cosplaying this year, and yea, I want to do my best in everything that I do :D

I want to thank every one of you, no matter who you are that had been a part of any of these, for making them happen, for making 2012 a very special year for me. Do continue to be a special part of my life, because I'll be needing a lot of support from everyone this year. A lot of challenges awaits for me, and everyone else. ><

I do hope I get to update my blog a little bit more frequently this year, so that I can pretty much update you guys more. 

Once again, thank you very much for all of your supports,

and 

Happy New Year 2013!!! <3 p="p">

Love,

05 April 2012~ (3) : Some fun in Starbucks :D

Current mood: I'm feeling quite sleepy now, actually~ XD


Music playbacks:
> I=fantasy - SeeU
> Part of Me - Katy Perry
> Safe and Sound - Taylor Swift ft. The Civil Wars
> Rocketeer - Far East Movement
> Through the Eyes of Love - Britt Nicole

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So I'm gonna end the day by uploading some pics of me while I'm at work.

Taken on Tuesday out of boredom when our store was extremely...nothing to do. |D

So the new partner, Qiela, had her new phone, the Samsung Galaxy S II (yes, I extremely envy her~ ;w;) and had this really cool camera app in her phone (IDK what it's called since I don't use Samsung phones...orzzz) and since we were all kinda bored to death, so we decided to have her take our pics. :3

These are the best six, using all sorts of different effects of the camera filter. :)

from left: Ken, me and our supervisor, Tan Sri Elavarasan~ XD (lolllll~ :3)

photobombing level: customer standing in front of the pastry case~ =w=

Feel like a movie star~ *w* <3

"Somedayyyy my prince will come~ <3"

Yes, I do daydream while I'm at work.

Your arguments are invalid. :3

Trying to act cute = FAIL.

OTL

Happy happy day~ ;3

Ahhhhh well, I'm lifeless, as you know it. (as always durhurrr~ XD)

Anyways, along with this post is one last picture I would like to share with everyone out there. :3

And here it is...!!!
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 I hereby officially announce that I am in an official relationship!!! :D

Yes, I know, some of you might say I'm a man eater or something like that, but trust me, I know a guy that's good for me when I see one, and be together with that one guy that I believe who will be able to take care of my heart. :)

Idk if there's gonna be a whole load of my friends who will get to know about this status (except for those who already knows) before him and I officially announce it on Facebook (where most of my friends are~ 8D) so yea, depending on how many of them reads this posts, then only those who now knows, knows. :3

In the mean time, I'd like to express my thank and love to Ken for being a really good boyfriend to me since the first day we started dating. (and yes, you are WAYYYYY better than my previous ex. :3)

Off to bed now, guys, Imma be working morning shift tomorrow. QuQ

Tata for now!!!

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17 Oct 2011: Silence's Confessions

Mood: 50/50. I have my reasons to be happy. And I have my reasons to be extremely angry now. >:/

Currently listening to:
> Double Lariat - Luka Megurine
> Glow - Celestial Chorus (cover version, original by Miku Hatsune APPEND DARK)
> Time Well Spent - Tom Felton

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Honestly, I know most of you who knows me in real life would know that I'm someone who rarely confesses what I really feel on the inside. (not just feelings for someone, but problems and all~ =___=) Except for when I'm with my besties, but sometimes I don't even tell them what's my problem.

So instead, I turn to Facebook and Twitter, in hopes that someone's words would help me ease my problems.

And sometimes when things doesn't turn for the better, I would resort to my trustee ol' blog of mine. :)

A place for me where everyone can read and hopefully understand what I'm trying to get off of my chest. :/

For one instance, I seriously don't understand why my mom loves to compare my previous and current workplace. It's as if she's condemning Starbucks or something, seeing it as a place where I don't get paid for working there.

And she obviously just doesn't understand the reason why I quitted my work in BarBQ Plaza and chose Starbucks instead of others.

I quitted my job from BarBQ Plaza, not because I think the workload there is too much for me. Instead, I quitted from there because the kind of tasks they offer to me is just unsuitable for me. Not only it's unsuitable, but it's also where I had to do like, 2 or 3 tasks on my own and the others won't even bother to help me. The seniors are just plain cocky. They just scream at us juniors in hoping that we would finish up their work for them. Okay, so I'm not saying that because I hate them or anything. I don't hate them, but it's just the truth in everyway. Honestly, they see me as someone who doesn't talk back or scold back at anyone when they ask me to do this do that every second and another. I honestly respect them, really, but screaming at us, asking us to do this do that is just not the right way to deal with us who barely worked there for a week or two.

If compared to Starbucks, it's completely different. Though we newbies do make mistakes, but they don't scold us or humiliate us in front of the customers like in BarBQ Plaza. Instead, the partners in Starbucks will help us correct our mistakes. They don't scold  us for no necessary reasons. :/

One more reason I resorted to Starbucks was because the approach to the customers used is WAYYYYY different than in BarBQ Plaza. One of the reason is because in BarBQ Plaza, I'm faced with a challenge of having to speak in Cantonese with the customers.

It's not that I don't want to learn to speak in Cantonese, but I just can't cope with it. ;w;

Starbucks, to me, is a more suitable working environment for me in every way. The pay for part time waitress in BarBQ Plaza may be more than in Starbucks, but honestly, I love it in Starbucks because, well, it suits me really well. :)

And since I'm still in the part time position, so I'm actually quite free to arrange my weekly schedule as I wish in the condition that I work for at least 4 days a week.

And right now, given that it's semester break for most of the part time partners, the schedule is currently full and they've got no where to fit me in except starting from this Thursday.

When I told this to my mom, she was furious and said that maybe they didn't want me to work with them anymore and I should've just stayed working at BarBQ Plaza.

HELLO????

I can't continue working at BarBQ Plaza because you don't know that I was THIS CLOSE to be in need of a back surgery if I didn't quitted from there. My back was paining like hell because of the almost-13-hour-a-day nonstop of painstaking work and I couldn't even tell you a word about it because I know that you'll just say this back to me: This is how life works. You'll have to suffer at first before you can succeed in the end. A little pain like this won't hurt.

I know that you tend to have backaches and all like how I felt back when I was still working in BarBQ Plaza, but if you were to be in my shoes, running around the place like a mad chicken for the whole day, from 10am-12am, I bet you would rather stay at home. :/

Nevertheless, I will prove to you that choosing Starbucks as my work place was a right decision and I will prove to you that they are not as selfish as you think they are. I have a right to decide what's right for my life when the time comes, and I'm reckoning that the time is now.

I hope that my mom and dad is able to understand this and not demotivate me with their words. Honestly, whatever they said to me today just made me want to go back to work even more, but unfortunately, for today, they can't insert me into any part of the schedule, so yea. TTwTT

Anyhows, I just want all of you to know that I never regretted quitting from BarBQ Plaza and choosing Starbucks as my working place for the long run, because I believe that Starbucks IS the place where I can truly see where my potential in business lies. :)

(and honestly, Starbucks is from America, and its line in business is bigger, so why compare it to something so small like BarBQ Plaza? It's not like anyone from America knows it anyway. =n=)

Okay, I'm done with my rage....

at least for now~ XD

I'm thinking that since I won't be called in for work from today til Wednesday, I wanna go hangout at Starbucks with my friends and just, you know, support me SBUX partners, because they're one more reason why I truly believe I can be working there for the long run. ^w^

I see myself even choosing Starbucks over being a civil engineer as my career. I don't know why, but that's just what I'm seeing from now on. *_____*
Oh well, but we'll never know where life will lead us, right?

And I've learnt to be grateful. Grateful that Starbucks is willing to accept me as part of them to make their experience for the customers better. ^____^

Okay, honestly, my rage ends here....

tired from being angry the whole day~ @@

So, I'm gonna recide my anger today by doing something else now.

See y'all soon, fellow netizens!!! <3

Til then...

and you should too~ ;)

19 Sep 2011: Ura-omote Lovers

Mood: Excited...reluctant...or nervous....it's either one of these moods for me to face my first day of work in Starbucks~ >A<

Currently listening to:
> Ura-omote Lovers - Miku Hatsune
> Jar of Hearts - Christina Perri
> Romeo & Cinderella - Miku Hatsune
> Freely Tomorrow - Miku Hatsune

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Hey netizens!! :D

I bet some of you would notice how hooked up I was with this song. XD

And after some consideration for some time, I finally decided to do a photoshoot PV for Miku Hatsune's famous tongue-twisting song, "Ura-omote Lovers" ("Two-faced Lovers")~~ :D

I've watched some self-made PVs of this song by some other Youtube users and they were pretty interesting, but neither of them still actually fits the song perfectly yet. In a way~ oWo (no offense to those out there~ >.< *infinity bows*

I have been wanting to do it for some time now, and since Ura-omote Lovers have had no specific descriptions in the costumes (if you have watched the original PV of the song, then you should understand it why, PERFECTLY~ *w*), so it's actually gonna be based on my creativity to make the photoshoot PV out of the song. Using the lyrics and making the shoot relate to it, I'm hoping that it will work out~ >w< <3 Already having some ideas on how my costume will be, but not how the video will be yet. So yea, giving myself some time to do it for now and hopefully I get to make it successful~ >A<

Don't know when I'm gonna commence this shoot, but yea, hopefully it's gonna be SOON~ 8D <3

Soon while my work schedule isn't so busy orz...;w;

I'm actually still waiting for my time to go to work now, coz apparently, my Starbucks manager called in not long ago and told me that I only have to report in for work at 6pm, so yea, I has time now to crap some craps in here while I wait. XD

Here's the original PV of Miku's "Ura-omote Lovers" if you haven't watched it yet.
Enjoy!! :D

And I'm off!!!

See y'all~ :D

(P.S: I'm in a seriously deep dilemma now~ D: friends are trying their best to talk to him and me, but nothing seems to be working so far to make things better. I'll still have to wait 3 weeks for him to give me his answer. And based on what he had told me the other day, which was that his answer contains both negativity and positivity, I'm kinda worried now. D: he did said that even if we broke up, we can still be friends, but I'm pretty sure things won't be the same again since I told him before that I wanted him to be my first and my last, and I don't care about him being a different race from me. :O)

18 Sept 2011: The day after I quitted my job

Mood: On the top of the cloud~ XD but at the same time I'm going through a wave of problems, so I'm tied between being overly happy and overly depressed. So, let's just call it neutral~ .w.


Currently listening to:
> Super Bass - Ashley Gosengfiao cover (original by Nicki Minaj)
> Freely Tomorrow - Miku Hatsune
> Story of Us - Taylor Swift
> Tear Us Apart - Nadhira ft. Ron E Jones
> Last Friday Night - Katy Perry

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Hey y'all netizens!!!

Yeap, people, as you've read the headline of today's post, I quitted my job at BarBQ Plaze yesterday.

Wanna know why?

Coz I can't handle the job stress there orz.

Not that I can't handle job stress, but the stress that I have to handle there is not the level of stress that I can handle. I know how many people have seen me handle loads of stress back when I was in high school, but the stress in the working world is different, and especially in there, it's something I can't handle~ @@
So, after some thoughtful considerations, I decided to stop my work there. :)

Now, I'm a happy free girl.

Free from that crazy job~ XD
Though I did have loads of fun time in there, but trust me, if I just have to stay there for another two weeks til the end of this month, I know I will go nuts. Go crazy. Crazier than I already am. @A@

But, not to worry, my good folks, I already have a backup job to back me up when I quit my job as a full time waitress at BarBQ Plaza. :D

I now work as a part time barista at Starbucks Coffee!!!! <3<3

Yea, it's in Jusco Kepong as well, but I know it's gonna be better than being a waitress at BarBQ Plaza. :3

Gonna start tomorrow and I hope this job will last til the end of the year. ^^

Oh yea, do you have any idea how much I miss my cosplay life? @@
not that I'm obsessed with it, I just kinda miss it. VERY VERY MUCH. TT_____TT

Planning to do a shoot by October with my dearest Hanatsu, so I'm hoping that time will be in our covinience so that I can continue to improve myself in cosplay. :D

And if I never mentioned, I'm on a cold war against my beloved sayang. :(

Must've been something that slipped out of my mouth again, perhaps, and also both of our tempers.

He told me loads of things that I never knew on Friday, and I'm hurt by his words, but at the same time I realized that I don't know him as much as I should know if we were to continue our relationship. :O
So right now, I'm waiting for his answer as patiently as I could, in 3 weeks time. I don't know if he would really personally call me on 8th October to tell me his answer, but somehow there's a downside in his answer. And if it's anything to do with having to break up with me, I don't know how I'm gonna handle it since I have never handled any break up before. TT_____TT

So, I'm praying my hardest that his heart would soften and he would forgive me, and that his decision would not involve anything that would drive me to (possibly) suicide or something like that. ;w;

orz

but no worries, I know I'm able to handle it.

Hopefully.

Oh wells, at least now I still have other things to distract me from it (lucky to have 'em) but seriously, I'm not ready to break up with him yet, moreover that he's my first, so I really want him to be my last.

And if there's anything I could do to fix this, I would do it.

Yes, my friends have advised me that I have to be patient and strong and not to think a lot about it and also to give each other time, but right now, only God knows how much I cry on the inside although all this while I'm always wearing a big smile on my face and laughing to every jokes. :/

So right now, I'm trying my very best to retain back my perseverance, strength, courage and patience, which I assume to have lost after I am together with him.

I know I have to get it back in me if I want to survive in my relationship with him. Without it, I believe I'm not me. I'm only someone who hides behind a mask.

Okay, leave that aside for now. >.<

I'm now just happy that I've quitted my job from there and I'm starting a new job tomorrow, a new job that I know I'll be looking forward to coz I went through the mind-boggling interview on my own, without my mom accompanying me and applied what I've learned back in National Service into the questions asked in the interview to help me to get this job. :) very proud of myself~ ^^

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A little quote to end my post of the day, relating it to what I've been through this week. :)

I’m a girl. I overreact. I underestimate. I overestimate. I over think everything. I dream big. And when I say I love you...

I’m not lying.

See ya!!! :3 <3

(P.S: I have no idea when I will resume on my fanfiction project. TTATT been delaying it for too long til I have no idea how to continue it.)

29 Aug 2011: I'm back online, people ~ :D

Mood: excited~ :D

Currently listening to:
> Jar of Hearts - Christina Perri
> Rolling In The Deep - Adele
> Tear Us Apart - Nadhira ft. Ron E Jones
> Takeover - Mizz Nina ft. Flo-Rida
> Freely Tomorrow - Miku Hatsune

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Hey y'all peeps~ :D

sorry for not updating for the past two weeks, broadband was down~ :/

but here I am again~ :)

loads of awesome things happened in the two weeks time, and loads of un-awesome ones as well. But all experiences in life that I've been through helps me grow up mentally, and sometimes physically as well. ^^

My sayang and I have been okay all this while~ :D

And we're just getting even more closer by the day~ sometimes, though some people talk about us, saying that the differences between us will not make us last, but I know it's not gonna be that way.

We understand each other, and we're still trying to understand each other deeper. So no one can tell us not to be together 'coz they don't understand us deep enough~ ;)

thanx to all who supports though, you guys are the best~ <3 *hugs and kisses*

Oh yeah, speaking of which, some of you might've known that I've postponed my enrollment into college to next year~ this is due to some financial and personal problems, so I've decided to go take up a full-time job to earn some money to help ease the financial burden~ >w<

I will be working as a waitress in a fairly newly-opened restaurant in Jusco Kepong called Bar.B.Q Plaza.

I'll be starting my work there this Thursday (1 September) so if any of you folks are around that place, feel free to drop by and say hi to me~ :) (and of course eat there~ XD)

Realized that after I start work and since I'll be working full time, I'll be working 6 days a week, so I'll only be able to update my blog like....maybe once...or twice a week~ ;w;

orz

sad life is sad.

.w.

Oh yea, one more thing.

Sunway University's annual cosplay event, AniManGaki will be held on 10-11 September 2011 in the same venue of course (Sunway University Multipurpose Hall...or something~). And for this year, I'll be going coz I'll be accompanying Hanatsu to go COD her Sakura wig~ XD

so to whomever is going to attend AniManGaki , keep an eye out for me~ :D Still not sure yet which day I'll be attending since I haven't started working and I haven't got my working schedule and all, so once I get it I'll inform you guys.

I will DEFINITELY be cosplaying, but as for what character I will be cosplaying, I won't be telling ya, so you'll have to find me til you get me, NO EXCUSES~ XDD

And also,

to all my Muslim friends and all Malaysians...

AND....

HAPPY 54TH INDEPENDENCE DAY TO MALAYSIA!!!!!!!

:D

Gonna celebrate these two special occasions on the same day, which is on the 31 Aug in my sayang's house during his Raya open house~ :3

wait, I forgot something... 

As for birthdays...

Celebrating her birthday on the same day as Malaysia's Independence Day, it's my favourite Vocaloid, Miku Hatsune!!!!! <3<3

Happy birthday, Miku!! :D
my celebration for her birthday will be at night~ ;3

More updates from me soon in the next two days~

See ya!!! ^O^/