19 Nov 2011: Alone again, but not lonely~

Current mood: DAMN SLEEPY~ =w=


Currently listening to:
> Back to December - Taylor Swift
> Scarlet Knight - Nana Mizuki
> Inori ~You Raise Me Up~ - Lena Park
> Party Rock Anthem - LMFAO ft. Lauren Bennett & Goon Rock
> Take Over - Mizz Nina ft. Flo-Rida

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I always knew in my mind and my heart that this day would finally arrive. And I always have been wondering and imagining how does it feel like, how would I react, how would I accept it in every way.

And when it finally ACTUALLY arrived, things weren't as how I thought it would be.

Yeah, I'm talking about me being single again.

And yes, it's totally different from what I actually imagined it would be.

I always thought that breaking up with a guy would be hurtful and I will be crying my eyes out til I could cry no more. I always thought that I would go through depression and think of ending my life just like that.

But I was wrong.

I was actually much happier, in a sense that although we are no longer in a relationship, but we are still happy to be friends.
At least that's better than having to tolerate a rather annoying boyfriend (an honest POV of mine, thank you very much~ :D)

At least right now that I'm single again, I'm not lonely, as I have loads of other things in life that can help me forget about this problem. :)

For example, my family, friends, and my cosplay. :)
They always help me get through the day.

and speaking of day, it's damn LATE LATE LAAATEEE at night, I need sleep, and I need to go to work tomorrow.

Starbucks for the WIN!! :D

Good night, fellow netizens~ :)
(AND I MISS BLOGGING!!!! o[>w<]o)

18 Sept 2011: The day after I quitted my job

Mood: On the top of the cloud~ XD but at the same time I'm going through a wave of problems, so I'm tied between being overly happy and overly depressed. So, let's just call it neutral~ .w.


Currently listening to:
> Super Bass - Ashley Gosengfiao cover (original by Nicki Minaj)
> Freely Tomorrow - Miku Hatsune
> Story of Us - Taylor Swift
> Tear Us Apart - Nadhira ft. Ron E Jones
> Last Friday Night - Katy Perry

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Hey y'all netizens!!!

Yeap, people, as you've read the headline of today's post, I quitted my job at BarBQ Plaze yesterday.

Wanna know why?

Coz I can't handle the job stress there orz.

Not that I can't handle job stress, but the stress that I have to handle there is not the level of stress that I can handle. I know how many people have seen me handle loads of stress back when I was in high school, but the stress in the working world is different, and especially in there, it's something I can't handle~ @@
So, after some thoughtful considerations, I decided to stop my work there. :)

Now, I'm a happy free girl.

Free from that crazy job~ XD
Though I did have loads of fun time in there, but trust me, if I just have to stay there for another two weeks til the end of this month, I know I will go nuts. Go crazy. Crazier than I already am. @A@

But, not to worry, my good folks, I already have a backup job to back me up when I quit my job as a full time waitress at BarBQ Plaza. :D

I now work as a part time barista at Starbucks Coffee!!!! <3<3

Yea, it's in Jusco Kepong as well, but I know it's gonna be better than being a waitress at BarBQ Plaza. :3

Gonna start tomorrow and I hope this job will last til the end of the year. ^^

Oh yea, do you have any idea how much I miss my cosplay life? @@
not that I'm obsessed with it, I just kinda miss it. VERY VERY MUCH. TT_____TT

Planning to do a shoot by October with my dearest Hanatsu, so I'm hoping that time will be in our covinience so that I can continue to improve myself in cosplay. :D

And if I never mentioned, I'm on a cold war against my beloved sayang. :(

Must've been something that slipped out of my mouth again, perhaps, and also both of our tempers.

He told me loads of things that I never knew on Friday, and I'm hurt by his words, but at the same time I realized that I don't know him as much as I should know if we were to continue our relationship. :O
So right now, I'm waiting for his answer as patiently as I could, in 3 weeks time. I don't know if he would really personally call me on 8th October to tell me his answer, but somehow there's a downside in his answer. And if it's anything to do with having to break up with me, I don't know how I'm gonna handle it since I have never handled any break up before. TT_____TT

So, I'm praying my hardest that his heart would soften and he would forgive me, and that his decision would not involve anything that would drive me to (possibly) suicide or something like that. ;w;

orz

but no worries, I know I'm able to handle it.

Hopefully.

Oh wells, at least now I still have other things to distract me from it (lucky to have 'em) but seriously, I'm not ready to break up with him yet, moreover that he's my first, so I really want him to be my last.

And if there's anything I could do to fix this, I would do it.

Yes, my friends have advised me that I have to be patient and strong and not to think a lot about it and also to give each other time, but right now, only God knows how much I cry on the inside although all this while I'm always wearing a big smile on my face and laughing to every jokes. :/

So right now, I'm trying my very best to retain back my perseverance, strength, courage and patience, which I assume to have lost after I am together with him.

I know I have to get it back in me if I want to survive in my relationship with him. Without it, I believe I'm not me. I'm only someone who hides behind a mask.

Okay, leave that aside for now. >.<

I'm now just happy that I've quitted my job from there and I'm starting a new job tomorrow, a new job that I know I'll be looking forward to coz I went through the mind-boggling interview on my own, without my mom accompanying me and applied what I've learned back in National Service into the questions asked in the interview to help me to get this job. :) very proud of myself~ ^^

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A little quote to end my post of the day, relating it to what I've been through this week. :)

I’m a girl. I overreact. I underestimate. I overestimate. I over think everything. I dream big. And when I say I love you...

I’m not lying.

See ya!!! :3 <3

(P.S: I have no idea when I will resume on my fanfiction project. TTATT been delaying it for too long til I have no idea how to continue it.)

29 Aug 2011: I'm back online, people ~ :D

Mood: excited~ :D

Currently listening to:
> Jar of Hearts - Christina Perri
> Rolling In The Deep - Adele
> Tear Us Apart - Nadhira ft. Ron E Jones
> Takeover - Mizz Nina ft. Flo-Rida
> Freely Tomorrow - Miku Hatsune

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Hey y'all peeps~ :D

sorry for not updating for the past two weeks, broadband was down~ :/

but here I am again~ :)

loads of awesome things happened in the two weeks time, and loads of un-awesome ones as well. But all experiences in life that I've been through helps me grow up mentally, and sometimes physically as well. ^^

My sayang and I have been okay all this while~ :D

And we're just getting even more closer by the day~ sometimes, though some people talk about us, saying that the differences between us will not make us last, but I know it's not gonna be that way.

We understand each other, and we're still trying to understand each other deeper. So no one can tell us not to be together 'coz they don't understand us deep enough~ ;)

thanx to all who supports though, you guys are the best~ <3 *hugs and kisses*

Oh yeah, speaking of which, some of you might've known that I've postponed my enrollment into college to next year~ this is due to some financial and personal problems, so I've decided to go take up a full-time job to earn some money to help ease the financial burden~ >w<

I will be working as a waitress in a fairly newly-opened restaurant in Jusco Kepong called Bar.B.Q Plaza.

I'll be starting my work there this Thursday (1 September) so if any of you folks are around that place, feel free to drop by and say hi to me~ :) (and of course eat there~ XD)

Realized that after I start work and since I'll be working full time, I'll be working 6 days a week, so I'll only be able to update my blog like....maybe once...or twice a week~ ;w;

orz

sad life is sad.

.w.

Oh yea, one more thing.

Sunway University's annual cosplay event, AniManGaki will be held on 10-11 September 2011 in the same venue of course (Sunway University Multipurpose Hall...or something~). And for this year, I'll be going coz I'll be accompanying Hanatsu to go COD her Sakura wig~ XD

so to whomever is going to attend AniManGaki , keep an eye out for me~ :D Still not sure yet which day I'll be attending since I haven't started working and I haven't got my working schedule and all, so once I get it I'll inform you guys.

I will DEFINITELY be cosplaying, but as for what character I will be cosplaying, I won't be telling ya, so you'll have to find me til you get me, NO EXCUSES~ XDD

And also,

to all my Muslim friends and all Malaysians...

AND....

HAPPY 54TH INDEPENDENCE DAY TO MALAYSIA!!!!!!!

:D

Gonna celebrate these two special occasions on the same day, which is on the 31 Aug in my sayang's house during his Raya open house~ :3

wait, I forgot something... 

As for birthdays...

Celebrating her birthday on the same day as Malaysia's Independence Day, it's my favourite Vocaloid, Miku Hatsune!!!!! <3<3

Happy birthday, Miku!! :D
my celebration for her birthday will be at night~ ;3

More updates from me soon in the next two days~

See ya!!! ^O^/

16 Aug 2011 (4): If I Die Young....

Mood: Rather neutral...I guess...?
Currently listening to:
> If I Die Young - The Band Perry
> Jar of Hearts - Christina Perri

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If I die young, bury me in satin

Lay me down on a bed of roses

Sink me in the river at dawn

Send me away with the words of a love song...

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A beautiful song that has been playing repetitively on Hitz.fm lately and has gotten stuck in my head as well.

Yea...somehow the song's got something related to me in a way~ :)

dedicating this song to everyone, especially those who are most important in my life.

a little message to all my loved ones...in case something DOES happen to me...

Enjoy the song, people. :)

31 July 2011: I'M BACK!!!!!!!!!!!

Currently listening to:
> Saat Terakhir - ST12
> Wira Wirawati (Lagu rasmi PLKN) <--missing PLKN too much I guess? Lol~~
> Corruption Garden - Luka Megurine
> Romeo and Cinderella - Miku Hatsune

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It's been a long 2 1/2 months.

A fun and exciting 2 1/2 months I've been away.

And now...

I'M BAAAAAAAAAAACKKK!!!!!!!!!!

Hehe~ :3

No pictures up yet in FB for now since the connection is hating me (as usual). And plus, I'm still sorting out the pics so it'll have to wait for some time. Most prolly they'll be up by this week when I go to the CC for a 2-hour session there~ XD

for now, let me announce something that I myself have never expected for it to happen to myself...

I. AM. NO. LONGER. SINGLE. AND. AVAILABLE!!!!!!!!!!

I am already taken by someone that I met in National Service.

But who is that person, you may ask?

Just wait and see til I post up the picture of him and I~ <3

til then, this is your cosplay, KHR, yaoi fanatic and former PLKN trainee blogger, Yukino...

SIGNING OUT!!!!!!!

XOXO~

ARRIVEDERCI!!! <3

(P.S: I miss blogging~ QwQ most of all, I miss writing my KHR story which has been suspended for God knows how long~ XD)