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Thursday, March 31, 2011

31 Mar 2011: Contact lenses have arrived~ ♥♥♥♥♥

||Mood||: super happy!!! 8DDD


||Currently listening to||
> Hold It Against Me - Britney Spears
> Airplanes (pt.2) - B.O.B feat Hayley Williams and Eminem
> Perfect - Pink
> Tooi Michi no Saki de - Romi Paku
> Arigatou ~Sekai no Doko Itemo~ - Hey! Say! JUMP

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Hey ya!!! XD

Today's the last day of the month before the arrival of April Fool's Day~ (tomorrow's 1st April and you never knew??? =3=) how has March been for everyone? :D
For me, it was...just average~ but still have some cool sides to it~ :)
just look at all my posts for this month~ XD
yeaaaaa, there WAS some bad moments, but they don't get me down~ ^^

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So, referring to the title of the post...

yes, I have recieved my contact lenses today!!!! 8DD <3

Mai beloved Dollyeye Blytheye Series in grey which is to be used for my original character cosplay, Iratella Catena~ ^^ <3

A gallery of pictures to show you the lenses (in an extremely low quality, thanx to my only source of photography, which is my phone~ .w.) from prior to opening the parcel all the way til camwhore-ing while wearing it~ XD

ENJOY!!!! XD (I suppose...? |D)

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First up~~
the preparation of the contact lens~ 8D

The unopened parcel~ :D
(the catchphrase "DIJAMIN SAMPAI ESOK" was no joke~ XD coz the dealer told me that she sent it out yesterday, and it actually arrived today~ 8DD)



After opening the parcel, this is the two small bottles that contains the contact lenses which is wrapped in a sheet of newspaper~ :3



After opening it.....
TADAAAA!!!! 8DD
I like the label on the vials~ <3


the power of my lenses~~
(yea, a friggin -7.50 , I'm THAT blind~ |D)



Still nice and pwetty in there~ <3



All the things that I need to prepare the lenses~ <3



The emptied vial~ XD



cleaning up one of the contact lens in my palm~ 8D



After cleaning and rinsing them properly, they're placed in their new home~ <3
and they're left for 4 hours for the protein residues or other particles to be removed~

**************4 HOURS LATER**************

The lenses are ready to be tested!!! 8D
wore them and camwhored with them~ XD
I took like, more than 50 camwhore pics today, but these are the (I think) best five~ XD

[WARNING: NO MAKEUP WAS USED TO COVER UP FACIAL DEFECTS DURING THIS CAMWHORE SESSION. PLEASE PROCEED AT YOUR OWN RISK.]
(XD)


Trying out the megane look~ 8D


CHEESUUU~~ <3



The Stare~ (???)



Warate~ :)



:D

-END OF CAMWHORE SESSION-
XD

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Wokays!! XD That's about it~ :D

And oh, another great news: just halfway thru writing this post, I found out that my wig actually arrived today too!!! 8'D
But it was because my items arrived when my mum and I was out for brunch, my neighbour accepted the parcel for me and kept it in her house while she went out for work. And after coming back, she handed over the parcel to me~ <3

Right now, I haven't opened it yet, but I'm gonna go offline earlier tonight to get a peek of my new wig and maybe try doing a lil camwhore with it and post the pictures up in tomorrow's post~ :D
and no, it won' be an April Fool's Day post, demmit~ =3=

This is your cosplay and KHR fanatic blogger, Yukino.....

SIGNING OUT!!!!!!

XOXO~
ARRIVEDERCI~~

(P.S: I have the urge to order more contact lenses now~ ;w; thru the same dealer, of course~ ;D)

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

30 Mar 2011: Of online purchasings for Iratella Catena

||Mood||: HAPPEH!!! Passed my taekwondo upgrading test today~ :'D

||Currently listening to||
> Koi wa Groovyx2 - Yuna Ito
> My All - Ayumi Hamasaki
> Claire de Lune [piano version] - Claude Debussy
> Magnet - Luka Megurine & Miku Hatsune
> Corruption Garden - Luka Megurine
> Just Be Friends - Luka Megurine
> Glow - Miku Hatsune APPEND DARK

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Hey there!! :D

how have you all been lately?
I'm fine too, thanx~ :D
Just carried out my taekwondo upgrading test today, btw~ from blue 1 to blue 2~ :D progress is slow, but at least I'm making progress!! ^^

passed it, duh~ XD that's why I'm feeling pretty happy today!! >w<

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Okay, so, in case you're wondering why I've ditched my blog for the past two days was because I have been pretty busy doing some last minute cosplay stuffs online shopping for my original character cosplay, Iratella Catena~ :D
Ordered a pair of contact lenses and a brown long wavy wig~ <3

Contact lenses is Dollyeye Blytheye series in Grey:

and the wig that I bought was a near waist length dark brown wavy wig:
(this is not the exact wig, but it looks something like this~ :D)

total cost?

RM 52 (wig) + RM 30 (contact lenses) = RM 82

TTWTT

All my hard earned money is gone within two days after banking them in~ ;w;


but it was because they say that it might be arriving within this week was why I decided to bank in the money within this two days~ (they were my angpao money, btw~ TTwTT)

So, pretty satisfied to know the fact that because they were cheap and affordable for me and that they are arriving within this week itself. <3

and now, I'm thinking of a way to accept the parcels without having my mom to kill me after she finds out the amount of money that I spent for these two~ .w.

ahahahhh, we'll just see how things will turn out when the time comes~ >.<

By the way, if any of these two items arrive by tomorrow, I'll flip with joy~ 8D because I wanna feel the accomplishment of having to do online purchasings by myself and not relying on Hanatsu all the time~ >w<

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Well, that's it for this post's random...randomness~ XD
I'm just rather excited because it's my first time ordering things online by myself, so for me, it's a pretty big accomplishment~ ^^

This is your cosplay and KHR fanatic blogger, Yukino...

SIGNING OUT!!!!!!!

XOXO~

ARRIVEDERCI~~~

(P.S: My hair is finally long enough to be tied into a high ponytail!!! QwQ <3 I like tieing my hair into high ponytails because I seem to look better in it~ >w<)

Monday, March 28, 2011

28 Mar 2011: My favourite score from "Tangled" ♪♫

||Mood||: tired~~ .w.

||Currently listening to||
> Tooi Michi no Saki de - Ai Takekawa ("Inuyasha: The Final Act" ED)
> Arigatou ~Sekai no Doko Itemo~ - Hey! Say! JUMP

> Kingdom Dance - Alan Menken ("Tangled" OST)

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Ohaithar, internet folks! o/

hehe, as for today, I won't be discussing on any trending topics lately, but instead, I'm gonna share with you a really awesome original score from an original Disney movie, "Tangled", the remake (and a better version, in my opinion~ XD) of "Rapunzel~ :D
it has been a personal favourite of mine ever since I first watched "Tangled" (sorry to say this, but I only watched it for the very first time just two weeks ago after purchasing the DVD~ TwT)

ahh, anyways, if you want to know more about "Tangled", uhm...

GO GOOGLE IT!! XD

okay, so here's the vid of the original score~ :D


the title of the score is "Kingdom Dance" which was composed by legendary composer Alan Menken, the guy who is responsible for all the awesome masterpieces of original scores for some of the epic Disney animations such as "The Little Mermaid", "Hercules" and so much more~ XD

I especially love this score because it's so lively and encouraging~ and of course, at the part where the song begins to pick up its pace (at about 1:15 into the video), it makes me wanna stand up and dance~ XD not just riverdance, but also some contemporary mixed into the Victorian-ish kind of dance~ XD

and you know what? XD
I feel like downloading this song and using it for a performance (yeesh, cosplay performance~ XD) well, it's not really a 100% confirmed plan yet, but, haha~ I just friggin love this score~ <3
I hope there was an extended version of the score~ TT^TT

ENJOY THE SCORE!!! AND LOVE IT!!!

XD
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Well, right now, I'm still waiting Michiru to upload pics from the result day so that I can post up a post on it, but since she's already started studying, so it depends~ :/

and I'm also still waiting for my Fujoshi H.School photographer to upload pics from our Comic Fiesta debut photoshoot~ but since he's always busy, so can't disturb or bug him about it~ >.<

so, either way, for now, I will be blogging loads of craps, so beware~

Don't say I never warned you~ XD

This is your cosplay and KHR fanatic blogger, Yukino~

SIGNING OUT!!!

XOXO~
ARRIVEDERCI~~~


(P.S: My whole body hurts from yesterday's taekwondo training~ ;w; my ass hurts especially orz)

Sunday, March 27, 2011

26 Mar 2011: Lesson on Love-declaration in Facebook~

||Mood||: sleepy, actually~ =w= but I just wanna throw something in here to entertain myself~ |D

||Currently listening to||

> Tooi Michi no Saki de - Ai Takekawa ("Inuyasha: The Final Act" ED)
> Arigatou ~Sekai no Doko Itemo~ - Hey! Say! JUMP

> Sen no Kotoba - Kumi Koda ("Final Fantasy X-2" OST)

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hey y'all internet folks! ^o^/

sorry for not updating for quite a while now~ I initially wanted to wait for Michiru to upload the pics from the SPM result release day, then only I'll update my blog.

but under one of my dear imouto's request (sorreh, no camwhore pics for the moment yea~ -w-) I decided to update my blog with some random topics for the moment.

And for today, it'll be about love-declaration on Facebook publicly and how it's affecting others.

(lol, I think I made it sound so hazardous~ XD)

[P.S: No, I'm not being jealous again~ =3= I'm just stating my honest opinions and no more than that~ :D So don't misunderstand anything~ =w=+]

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(I hereby state that this post is from my point of view as a relationship consultor~ :D)

Okay, so...love-declaration to one another.
It is a normal thing to do in reality or even in the virtual world (social networks, especially).

So, if it's in reality, it is a MUST to maintain a relationship. (like duh, takkan wanna say "I haet joo" pulak~ XD) So I don't mind if a couple wants to show that they love each other AS LONG AS they don't over-do it or even do excessive 'Public Display of Affections' such as make-out or hugging...too intimately. (seriously, I hate that~ D:<)

Then, it comes to social networking sites.

So, when a couple is a unable to meet up with one another, they'll depend on social networking sites (especially Facebook, as based to what I'm observing now~) to contact one another.

And as if announcing that you and a particular person is in a relationship by changing your relationship status to "In a relationship" or "Married to" (<--- for unmarried couples, putting up your status as this makes me wanna punch you in the face~ =w=+) with your beloved isn't public enough, and yet you still go around to your beloved's profile and posted CLEARLY AND OBVIOUS on his/her wall or also update your own status that states "I LOVE YOU" or "I MISS YOU~ *hugs* <3" and all.

Seriously~!!! @A@
It annoys me!!! it's as if you are trying to show off to the world that you are in a relationship and that you're awesome!! >A<

I know, I know that's it's not right for me to butt into others' relationships or anything, but as someone who has been observing things that has been going around, I take this real seriously to myself and also to all those who feel the same way as me.

Now, I don't remember Facebook as being a social network site specially only for couples/lovers to keep declaring your love to one another and also to say lovey-dovey things to one another~ >A<

it's okay for you, I know~ but have you ever considered what others would think about you?

sheesh~ >.> obviously those who feels proud about doing that have never taken others' feelings into account before saying anything~

I'm not trying to say that it's bad, but it's just pretty annoying and it's...as what I would think as inappropriate~ D:
because by declaring your love to one another publicly especially in Facebook, you're not just declaring your love to one another; you're actually declaring your love to one another AND TO THE WHOLE WORLD!!!

SERIOUSLY!!! DX
All you wanted to do was to tell the whole world that you love him/her??
Well, unless you're saying that you love the world and want to maintain world peace, then I'll assume that as an exception~ =w=
Relationship statuses to me is more than enough to show the world that you are in a relationship, and posting wall posts or statuses that declares your love to him/her is just over-exaggerating the relationship~ D:
as if while being together, you won't even have the time to tell "I love you" to him/her in less than 2 seconds.

like, WTF man~ =n=

I may not be a person who's very pro in relationships (or even have been in a relationships) but that doesn't mean that I don't have any ideas about all these things~ =3=

So, for the last time, let me tell all those who likes to declare their love to their beloved publicly...

DECLARE YOUR LOVE TO ONE ANOTHER, NOT TO ONE ANOTHER AND THE WORLD.

*peace*

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This part of the post is specially for one particular person that I've been observing for a pretty long time. Whether or not that person will read this post, hopefully it'll give some realization to that person and...you know, get that person to think in that person's right mind.

(to that girl whom I've been observing for a few weeks now...and yes, she's one of my close friends, so hopefully she gets a wake up call from here~)

A few weeks ago, you said that you were looking for your childhood friend from kindergarden and also stated that you might have a crush on him. You also stated that hopefully when you managed to find him, you want to try to become an item with him.
As one who always supports another to do what they really wanna chase for, I supported her and asked her not to give up and continue to search for him on Facebook.

I really hoped that she would.

But then, all of a sudden, she changed her relationship status to be "In a relationship" with one of the guy cosplayer that have just recently started out in cosplaying. I have no idea whether the relationship between them was genuine or not, because based on her, she said that she changed to that relationship status with him because the both of them planned to do a cosplay pair of Hayate and Nagi from "Hayate no Gotoku". Okay, so, at first I just believed that.

but when I start to see those public love declarations between the both of them (especially from her to him), I'm beginning to feel...odd...because, she said that she would never give up on trying to find that childhood friend of hers and that once she does find him, she will want to be couples with him~ D:

Okay, so, the logical thing here is that if she does find him on Facebook and as promised, she will want to be couples with him. Then she adds him as a friend on Facebook and when he sees that relationship status of hers before confirming her friend request, and when he does approve her friend request and sees that she changes her relationship status to "Single" once he does approve her request, he'll suspect something, no?
(I mean, all of this is to my logic~ and i hope you do understand what i'm trying to explain here~ ;w;)

*Sigh* but what to do? She doesn't see the world the same way as I do.

So whatever her decision is after this, and if she does encounter any problem, it's a maybe that I'll help her. But if the problem as stated above occurs when her childhood friend says that he doesn't want to be couples with her, I don't know if I can help her when the time comes. :/

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Ahhh, well, that's it for today's random crap and honest confessions on what I've been keeping inside lately. :)

do note that this is just an honest opinion of mine and not something that I'm writing to shoot anyone here.

Cheers~ :D

This is your KHR and cosplay fanatic blogger, Yukino..

SIGNING OUT!!!

XOXO~~~

ARRIVEDERCI~~~


(P.S: I found my passion and true love for taekwondo again~ ;w; <3)

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

22 Mar 2011 (2): LESS THAN 24 HOURS TO GO!!!

||Mood||: Dead nervous~ DX

||Currently listening to||
> Arigatou ~Sekai no Doko Itemo~ - Hey! Say! JUMP

> Brand New Breeze - Kanon ("La Corda D'oro ~primo passo~" OP)

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Hey y'all~ :)

The nervousness for tomorrow is spreading everywhere on all social network sites~ @_@

And it's less than 15 hours to go before the day arrives!!! >n<|||

So damn nervoussss~~~

and I'm joining together with all my friends in the countdown to the arrival of tomorrow~ and also to the moment we get our hands on our results~ @@

And I'm done digging my virtual grave together with Kaoru Sora, and now, we're just waiting for that moment to arrive so if anything goes wrong, we'll just dive into the grave.

Oh, lol~ it's just a joke, but....afuhnewyabvguehwbavuhbrwvwia~~ @A@

(more gibberish later)

and let's all hope for the best yea?

So, SPM 2010 candidates, cross your fingers (and your toes too if you have to~) and freak out!!! Like, SERIOUSLY!!!!!

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Miserable and hungry, I shall go join my parents and young sis to go to the nearby night market to go get our dinner~ :D

(and along the way, cry tears of misery, due to thinking about tomorrow~ @_@)

this is your KHR and cosplay fanatic blogger, Yukino.........

SIGNING OUT!!!


XOXO~


ARRIVEDERCI~~~

(P.S: What do you think I should ask my dad to get me if I get 7As and above for my SPM results? :D Any suggestions?? ^^)

22 Mar 2011: A day of pudding making~ :D

||Mood||: happeh, coz although the pudding kind of...failed...but it still became a pudding~ |D


||Currently listening to||
> Welcome to My Fan Clubs' Night - Sheryl Nome starring May'n ("Macross Frontier" OST)
> Arigatou ~Sekai ni Doko Itemo~ - Hey! Say! JUMP
> Ranbu no Melody - SID ("Bleach" OP)
> Rain - SID
> Tooi Michi no Saki de - Ai Takekawa ("Inuyasha: The Final Act" ED)
> Glow - Miku Hatsune APPEND DARK

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ohaithar, internet folks!! :D

hehe, in case you're wondering on how I'm feeling now~ I'm actually feeling better now, thanx~ ^^
though I had a pretty bad headache the whole day yesterday, but now, it's feeling better~
all that's left now is to collect my SPM results tomorrow, then I'm free to feel better after that~ |D maybe take a second trip to Tenshi no Cafe and go nutso there again...? XD

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So...this was what I did yesterday to kill time....

MAKE PUDDINGS!!!!!! XD

Mango puddings are awesomely awesome~ <3
but...I kinda phailed in making them yesterday, since it was my first time making them and there was no one helping me out in the kitchen~ =3=

but, well, it became a pudding in the end anyway~ XD

it tasted a bit weird....but I think that's because of the brand of the pudding mix~ =X

anyhows...here is a pictorial chronology of the pudding-making process from yesterday~ :D

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I started off with preparing the moulds first~ :D washed and dried them~ ^^ (P.S: yea, it's the bird's nest bottles that I'm using, harharrrr~ |D)



The pudding mix~ :D Mango flavour!! >W< <3



Boiling the water first~~



How the pudding mix looks like~ XD



Pouring it into the boiling waterrrrrr~~~



Bubbles!!! 8D *bloop, bloop, bloop~ *



Mixing it nice and slowly~~ :3



After leaving it to boil for approx. 2-3 minutes, it's finally done!! XD Poured it back into this little jar coz it'll be easier to pour it into the little glass moulds compared to pouring the pudding mixture from the pan straight into the moulds~ :)



Pouring the hot pudding mixture into the little glass mould~ <3


There!!! All five done~ :D And they're still steaming hot~~ :O



Okay, so one mistake that I made at this point that made the pudding taste weird was because I put them into the fridge while they were still quite hot~ :O yea, i learnt my lesson, so I'll remember this the next time I make puddings again~ >.<



After leaving them in the fridge for about one hour, I went to check them. And woah, they're solid already!! XD



Left them to completely chill for about 3 hours, then I covered the little moulds with the lids~ :D Those lids are the original lids of the little glass jars, and it makes them pudding look cute~ >w<



Time to eat!! XD Took this when I took it out after dinner~ :D it was my dessert, nyum nyummm~ <3



Opened the lid!!! XD Smells sweet~ :3



Dig in!!!!! 8D



Pudding~~~ <3



And I finished them within 5 minutes~ :D <3



My elder sis also tried it out~ :D



and this is her reaction from eating them~ XD
(I now wonder whether that expression is genuine or not~ =w=)


there's another two left in the fridge now~ :D gonna take one more later on~


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Haha, so...there's a few things I gotta remember when making puddings now, so I can make better ones next time!! >W<

hoho, I somehow find loves in making jelly-related desserts from this point onwards~ :3

okay, now off to mop ze floor...to ease my worriness about tomorrow~~ QwQ

this is your cosplay and KHR fanatic blogger, Yukino...

SIGNING OUT!!!!


XOXO~~~

ARRIVEDERCI~~~~

(P.S: it's raining for the whole day again~ so cold~ >~<)



Sunday, March 20, 2011

20 Mar 2011 (3): What makes me happy~♪♫

||Mood||: Slightly better than earlier in the evening~ :)

||Currently listening to||
> Ranbu no Melody - SID ("Bleach" OP)

> I Don't Want to Miss A Thing - Yuna Ito (cover from Aerosmith)

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Hey y'all~ :)

Third post of the day, I know~ but then this is what I can do to help calm myself down and make myself feel better rather than doing...nothing about it.

Well...I did talk to my elder sis about what's in my head, but nothing beats listening to some nice songs to help make myself feel better. >w<

Don't question my choices, because these songs are just what I needed~ >3>

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Weird enough, SID and Yuna Ito's songs make me feel better whenever I listen to them. No matter which song it is, especially from SID, makes me feel...well...BETTER. Puts a smile on my face~ XD

What song from SID that made my day?
Well...it's not relatively THAT new, but I'm hooked to this song since the first time I heard it~ <3

RANBU NO MELODY



Lyrics:

Shizuka ni shizuka ni maku wa kiri otoshi

Kakusei no yoake ni aoi honou

Miwatasu kagiri no yami to katto wo te saguri no hibi
Bokura wa make wo shiranai yowasa wo
Dakishime aruita

Atarashii kiba de jidai wo kizame

Shizuka ni shizuka ni makuwa kiri otoshi
Kakusei no yoake ni aoi honou
Mamoritai anata?ni deaeru sono hi made wa
Yuushu nobi yori me no mae no teki wo

Kokoro nai kotoba hoko saki subete wo nomi komi aruita

Tsukareta hushin wa jishin ni neji mage

Kurushikute nige takute maga sashita mirai wa
Yume egaita bokura to tooi tokoro de
Jikan nante hosou nante kechi rashite hohoenda
Ano koro nani mo kowaku nakatta ro?

Shizuka ni shizuka ni maku wa kiri otoshi
Kakusei no yoake ni aoi honou
Mamoritai anata?ni deaeru sono hi made wa
Yuushu nobi yori me no mae no teki wo

Itoshikute itoshikute hoka ni wa nani mo nakute
Koko kara miwatashita keshiki zenbu
Matomete tsurete itte ageru sa hanasanai de
Zutto nari yamanu ranbu no MELODY

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And song choice from Yuna Ito?

I DON'T WANT TO MISS A THING

I know!! It's Aerosmith's song!! >n<

but read this description first before you jump to any conclusions~ ><

In June 2010, Yuna opened a special project named ; I Want to Do a Western Cover. The idea was that she would do a live cover on her radio show Heart to Heart. However, there were so many request that her official website took the project and turned it into Ito Yuna Respects. After that 10 songs were selected (that were requested the most) and people could vote on one of these songs. The song that won the poll was Aerosmith's I Don't Want to Miss a Thing.

Understand now?
now you can listen to this song and enjoy Yuna Ito's awesomeness~ <3


Lyrics:

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Where every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

Don't wanna close my eyes, I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you baby and I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you the sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
I just wanna stay with you in this moment forever, forever and ever

I don't wanna close my eyes, I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you baby and I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you the sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

I don't wanna miss one smile, I don't wanna miss one kiss
I just wanna be with you, right here with you, just like this
I just want to hold you close, feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment for all the rest of time

Don't wanna close my eyes, don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you baby and I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you the sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

I don't wanna close my eyes, I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you baby and I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you the sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

I don't wanna close my eyes, I don't wanna fall asleep
Yeah, I don't wanna miss a thing

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Well...I don't know how will YOU think of this song, but for me, they are what made me feel better from what I've confessed in my previous post today~

I don't know how it did, but it just did~ :)

I must say, music is a very powerful thing~ it affects lives~ and it brought a change to mine~ ^^
this is why I kinda devoted my current life to singing and dancing...and also cosplaying~ XD

coz these are the only things that could be described as my life now~ :)

This is your cosplay and KHR fanatic blogger, Yukino.....


SIGNING OUT!!!!!!


XOXO~

ARRIVEDERCI~~

(P.S: The world is very screwed up now... I don't know what to believe it anymore~ .__. and I'm having a bad stomachache OTL)

20 Mar 2011 (2): I've been alone all along...♪♫

||Mood||: down...but I'm finding a way to keep myself happy, no worries~ :)

||Currently listening to||
> My Immortal - Evanesence
> Glow - Miku Hatsune APPEND DARK
> Dear - Miku Hatsune

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I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me, me, me

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Hey ya~ :)
If you're wondering what's this song doing here, it's something to do with how I'm feeling now...and also this song actually helped me out a lot on my fanfictions~ :)

First up...wanna know how I'm feeling now?
Well...exactly as how the post title says.
I have been alone all along.

As in...I've never been into a relationship all this while... :/

And now...looking at posts in my Facebook home wall with whole loads of people getting together as couples (especially those who are my close friends and also those who are younger than me) makes me realize that I've been lonely all this while...not committed into any serious relationship...

Although I did had that principle to not commit into a relationship until I'm ready to do so, but somehow...looking at everyone else, labelling themselves as couples and also watching couples walking about happily...made me feel kind of left out...and, yea, lonely.
And also listening to my friends telling me about their boyfriends and all just made me feel kind of...left out. (orz, been repeating those few words over and over again~ >__>)

If you think I'm feeling jealous, then you're wrong~ >n<
i'm just feeluing a little down...and lonely.... .__.
all I could do to ease that lonliness of mine is by reading shoujo mangas, writing fanfictions and imagine.

Yeah, all emo but then doing all these things to help cover that reality up~

but then, that's the good thing about being single~

Because I have the freedom to do whatever I want without being restricted by anyone (as in, boyfriends...my family still have the right to restrict me~ =w=)
And I also have all the time to myself~ not having to go out on dates and commit my time to a guy...

though that is a crucial part in a girl's life, but as I said...i'm still not ready yet~ :/

And, as I also did say...though I'm not ready to commit myself to a serious relationship, I do feel kind of lonely...and I've been alone all along....

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Well....good news about this song is that this song is the base guideline to one of the chapters of my KHR: DVST Project fanfic~~ 8D

[SPOILERS!!!!]

The song, based on the lyrics, is from Iratella's point of view towards Dino after they seperated temporarily. After they did, through this song and also another song (song title will be revealed when the time comes~ >W<) Iratella realized the whole reason why Giella and Cavallone Primo didn't get married and also realized that she still loves Dino.

Haha~ wait til then to find out how the story goes from there~ >W<

for now, anticipate for chapter 6 to be completed!!!! XD <3

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okay, off to more emo-ing now~~

or rather...try to cure my spinning head~ O.o

dont know whether it's because of my lack of sleep or it was because of the pressure from thinking about 23rd March~

either way.....

I'll be fine, so you don't have to worry about me~
I'll be okay eventually, because I'm the kind of person who does not get stuck in an emo situation for a long period of time~ ^^

You'll see~ :D

i will find that silve lining behind the dark clouds~ <3

this is your cosplay and KHR fanatic blogger, Yukino..


SIGNING OUT!!!!!

XOXO~~
ARRIVEDERCI~~


(P.S: Slow internet is slow~~ :S)

20 Mar 2011: Only three more days to go

||Mood||: rough feeling in my heart....orz....(メ ̄  ̄)_θ☆゚0゚)/

||Currently listening to||
> My Immortal - Evanesence

> Bring Me to Life - Evanesence
> Pray - Justin Bieber
> Glow - Miku Hatsune APPEND DARK
> Just Be Friends - Luka Megurine


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Hey y'all!! (^O^)/

Don't mind my mood status up there~ I'll briefly tell you why in the next post~ :)
(actually...that's also what I'm feeling too in this post~ >W<)

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Short post begins here~

Yeap. It's only three more days to go before I'm gonna get my SPM exams results...

I'm feeling extremely scared now~~ Q___Q

I don't know what to expect, demmit!!!

bad or good, it's gonna be known in another 3 days time!!! >n<
I'm now just...praying for the best...and everything will work out fine~~ ><

And right now, I'm so freaked out by the number of days left before the release of the results, I can't even think about what to type next~ :/

OTL

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Anyhows, thanks to my emo-ness, to a song I'm listening to now and also some mangas that I read through last night, I can now say that I (might be) able to make you cry at the ending of my fanfiction!! XD

Well...not chapter 6, btw...it's in the last chapter~ XD

this is your cosplay and KHR fanatic blogger, Yukino...

SIGNING OUT!!!!!!!


XOXO~~
ARRIVEDERCI~~~~~~


(P.S: Been raining again lately...somehow, it's been suiting my recent moodiness~ :/)

Thursday, March 17, 2011

17 Mar 2011: One more week to go~

||Mood||: Well...not so good...prolly it's because...it's just me~~

||Currently listening to||
> Need You Now - Lady Antabellum
> Glow - Miku Hatsune APPEND DARK
> Shiver - The GazettE ("Kuroshitsuji II" OP)
> A Song For Japan - Shiomaru @ Shio Yee

> Diamond Crevasse - Sheryl Nome starring May'n ("Macross Frontier" ED)

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Hey there~ :D
Things have been pretty rough these few days, clear enough because of the disaster that stuck Japan last Friday. Following the disaster, there have been a lot of people who came together and prayed for Japan and also all those affected from previous disasters. But then, loads of controversial topics, issues, debates and events occurred following the disaster. Those who are my followers in my twitter and also part of my friends list in Facebook should know that I've sparked a rather controversial topic last night, but that was solely based on my opinion and luckily, everyone agreed on what I think.
But those who didn't know what it was, better don't ask me to reveal it here, because if I do post it up here, it's gonna spark an argument.

Oh, don't say it won't, because I know it will.

Then again, everyone's talking about it, so feel free to shoot me.

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Let's get back on track, shall we? Don't wanna spoil anyone's day now~ >n<

So...as the post title says...it's one more week to go.

What's in one more week to go?

Why...23rd March 2011 of course.

It sounds only familiar to those of the same age in the same country as I am.

That's right.

The release of the SPM examination results.

The date that determines my future.

homaigawsh...I never thought that this day would arrive faster than I expected because all this while...I've never even thought about it!!!! Q^Q
And, as I said, this day will determine my future.
Whatever results that I'm going to get, it's going to affect me in the future.

Yea, most seniors said that the release date is just too late, but what to do?
As long as I still get my results.

The feeling of anticipating for 23rd March to arrive is exciting and at the same time agonizing. And I don't know how to face that day when it finally comes.

I will be running out and about in the house and also in school like a headless chickin, or I may be just fiddling my hair about while waiting for the moment to arrive. I might also be crying and laughing at the same time like a lunatic, scaring people away from me. I could also be just...sitting down there...at a corner...statued...no expression at all...

and all of that will change the moment I hold the result slip in my hands.

I might be jumping and crying tears of joy, or stomping and crying tears of sadness and disappoinment.

Well, not wanting to put so much high hopes for now, because what's done is done, and I can't do anything to change it.

All I could do now is just to wait for it to come. And I'll decide how to react there and then.

I don't know, but I'm having a feeling that things won't be really good for me.

Or is it me just being all paranoid again?
Which ever is the right one now, I just hope that things won't turn out for the worse.

Let's all hope for the best, okay?

And I wish all the best for everyone out there who'll be taking your SPM results on the same day as me. Good luck and hope for the best!! ^O^/

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Friggin cold lately, since it's always raining in the afternoon and I have a table fan that's blowing directly at my direction.

Oh, what fun.

And have you all noticed that after the Japan disaster, the weather have been acting all funny and abnormal? Wondering why it's happening?
Best source for answers?

GOOGLE.

XD

This is your KHR and cosplay fanatic blogger, Yukino...

SIGNING OUT!!!

XOXO~~

ARRIVEDERCI~~


(P.S: Please continue to pray not only for Japan, but also all victims of previous disasters. And also, don't go around spreading fake news or issues or even make jokes out of them. That just makes God even more angry. :D)



Monday, March 14, 2011

14 Mar 2011: From Shiomaru to Japan~♪♫

||Mood||: Really...really...touched by this song~~ ;w;

||Currently listening to||
> A Song For Japan - Shiomaru

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Ohaithar, internet folks! /o/
As you know, yesterday, I blogged a post about a song that Yoko Kanno wrote and composed for the victims of the quake and tsunami in Japan.

And for today, I'm going to post up a song that our very own Shiomaru @ Shio Yee wrote for the victims in Japan.

A short, simple song with simple lyrics, but carries a genuine emotion, expressing deep hopes and prayers to all citizens of Japan and also to all those affected to always stay safe and stay strong.



Lyrics:

Going through it all
As I see how it began
Everything's changing
While I couldn't do a thing
But here I am to say
What I would say, as I
Witness all the hopes it took away

The world is sleeping
While you think it'd never wake
What you have lost, you never could retain
All the dreams washed away
All the hearts, they will break
And some of those you loved could never stay

Please be safe
Wherever you are we'll always pray for you
Till the day that you can stand again

Things will get better everyday
With family and friends

You know they'll be there
They know you will too
Live on, be strong, we're trying with you


Enjoy the song~ :)

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Not much to say nowww~~

off to twitter and FB to keep myself updated on the latest news.
and also watch BBC and CNN.

XOXO~

ARRIVEDERCI~~~


(P.S: I'm a seriously phailed reporter~ >3>)